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Feb 28, 2017 - Doctorate    1 Comment

The Quit-o-Meter

I work full-time and am in school full-time. There is little time for fun or play. And because of this my Quit-o-Meter is high!

I need people I can call and ask them to remind me why I’ve done this to myself! Why did I seek to get a doctorate? Why did I sign up for that committee at work? Why did I agree to that service opportunity?

I like to think that I can balance my life by subtracting things I don’t want to do, but in this season of my life that’s not possible. I cannot say, “I think it would be better for my health not to write that term paper, Professor.” Likewise, I cannot say to my boss, “I just don’t feel like working today. Can I just sit here instead?” I cannot subtract tasks from my life easily right now.

So my option is to add.

Add goodness. Add people. Add fun and well-mannered frivolity!

My Quit-o-Meter is sometimes high and my schedule is tighter than it has ever been. But somehow adding more is the right answer because it changes the relative enjoyment of life. So I’m adding massage appointments, and dinner dates with friends, and reading a book for fun. Sometimes these are done in fifteen minute increments because I still do have twenty page papers to write, but these additions are helping to lower my Quit-o-Meter and make me feel more balanced.

How do you achieve a feeling of life/work/school/family balance in life?

Semester One Recap

I have one semester of my doctorate under my belt.

Holy frijoles. What a semester!

doctorate, school, day one

I now know anything anyone could care to know about Florida House Bill 943 and can articulate a growth theory which likens our lives to a river blocked with rocks and aided by driftwood. I am a more knowledgable clinician now.

But what do I give up to do this?

I give up home cooking and instead I throw together meals and wraps last minute. I give up watching shows or keeping up with current events. I give up flexibility and spontaneity.

And what do I gain? Knowledge. Goals. Excitement about future possibilities.

I made a pact with myself to keep school in its corner and not let it expand and take over my world. I made a decision to be the World’s Okayest Student. I wanted to do mediocre work! And if you know me, you know that I am a perfectionist especially when it comes to school!

okayest student cup doctorate

 

I believe school is important and hard work will help my patients and possible students in the future, but I’m not willing to give up relationships and ministry to do it. I want to strive for more and be content with where I am. In the wise words of Cool Runnings, “If you’re not enough without it, you’ll never be enough with it.” That includes doctorates, and relationships, and houses, and children, and jobs, and bank accounts, and awards. If you are in need of this reminder, as I am: You are enough. Just as you are.

Balance and adventure. Determination and relaxation. Mediocrity and ambition. These pairs of juxtaposing ideas have circled in my head throughout the entire year. But in the midst of all of it, I am enough.

I can work out of my worth instead of working for it.

In this knowledge, bring on next semester!

 

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